Live talk (weight loss surgery, TLC show,binge eating )
Streamed live on Dec 8, 2019
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uKe124-aJ6A

what baby I already told her I was
coined live somebody hey welcome welcome
welcome I'm sorry I didn't see you guys
coming in I am I put my stuff on do not
disturb on my phone but of course I
don't know what's on going through so I
have to message somebody be like stop
calling me anyways how's your guys is
evening going go your Sunday trying to
catch up here I'm feeling better
thank you um I am NOT like running the
fever but I'm I'm feeling I am feeling
better I'll say that much but hold on
just second
anyways I am feeling better but I think
I might need to possibly still go to
Urgent Care again tomorrow because I am
welcome mrs. wombat hopfrog hope frog I
think I'm saying that correctly I think
I'm gonna need like an a good dose of
antibiotic because I'm still pretty
congested down in here my throat's
feeling better my voice is coming back
but I'm still coughing quite a bit of
stuff so I think it's a my sinus so I'm
thinking I might have came down with a
sinus infection on top of all this but
I've been doing my inhaler and doing all
of that stuff so I hope you feel a
hundred percent soon Thank You Christy I
will it's the season I mean everybody is
getting sick and you know when you're
going out in the stores and touching
carts and stuff how was your breathing
um well at the very beginning of my
sickness it was very bad very bad
I felt like my lungs were just closing
in on me um but since I've been on my
predator it's doing a lot better but I'm
still like I said coughing a lot of gunk
up so there's something settling in
there that's just not being able to come
up on its own so I'm thinking that
that's what's going to need the
antibiotic so I will go in there and
probably I'll probably go in tomorrow I
was trying to avoid it because I hate
taking the kids with me to a doctor's
appointment if it's not for them I hate
going into the doctors with them because
why take them into an extra place to get
sick you know so I just like ah and you
don't have anybody just sit with the
kiddos to tomorrow so I don't know I
might call and just see
because they've already seen me in the
urgent care see if they can just order
me something but then again I don't know
I'm checking really quick for something
let's see here I want to check my block
list and reason being is because I had a
few people tell me that they're blocked
and I don't want that so if there's
anybody on here that is messaging or
typing and I don't see it let me know
and I will go in and check because
somehow some ways some I think up lock
to some accident hey Cindy hello
happy Sunday welcome to vlogmas 8 I was
gonna go live yesterday but I was just
filling to it so I thought well I'll
just do it I'll just do it today so me
and all he had some things to do we went
to Costco and then I don't know we had a
bite to eat and then came home and I was
like well I need to do a live so that's
what I'm doing and I don't know why I'm
not being able to if any of my YouTube
creators are on here where do I go to
unblock because I don't know where I'm
supposed to go for this this is all so
confusing anyways how is everybody doing
sorry I know I'm half like paying
attention but not paying attention I'm
trying to get this your channel I know
there's one specific one that told me
that they were blocked so that's what
I'm checking for anyways so we went had
something to eat went to Costco came
home decided to go live so I just took a
shower got my jammies on
now I'm sitting here with all of you
what this weekend did you guys do
anything fun
of course I sat home cuz I'm sick so I
didn't get to do anything what type of
diet and exercise routine are you
following uh you know actually all I am
doing is um I don't know why I'm not
being able to find the block thing I
have no clue anyways sorry
whoever's blocked I'll figure it out at
some given point I don't know why I'm
not gonna keep this going cuz I'd like
to pay attention to my life um so I am
not technically following like any like
any one given diet I am just doing more
of just really watching what I'm eating
and kind of keeping a routine with what
I eat hi Denise welcome and then
physical activity right now is very low
because we're waiting for the MRI on my
lower back they think that I could have
a stress fracture down in my lower spine
so my doctor asked for me to please just
take a little bit of an easy plus with
whatever is going on here I'm supposed
to be resting as well just until I get
better so hey Lindsey I emailed you did
you get my email back Cindy I have a
question how long is your hair good
question so my hair right now is a right
above my but I don't know how else to
say it's like right there on the edge of
my butt it's tucked in they're all tied
away but yeah about long thick hair and
it's kind of curly so it's really hard
like when I wash it I'm just like I hate
I hate hair washing day because I don't
wash my hair every single
I watch it usually anywhere from every
other day to every two days but on my
hair washing day I hate eggs it takes so
much longer and then to brush it out is
like haha but it's you know I've had it
as short as like a bob all the way up to
I mean I've had it cut to where it was
shaved on the back but my hair actually
has been growing fast this time I
normally it takes a long time for my
hair to grow but I just anyways Lindsay
I did email you back so let me know if
you got the email and if you still
wanted me to do what you emailed me and
then answer those questions because I
can go and get the shirts like I can go
and get them actually tomorrow if you
need me to get them and start them so
check your email and then get back to me
let me know I'd be more than happy to do
it but you guys can ask any questions
I'm on here I'm just sitting here I have
like tons of time to talk you guys can
they ask anything and I'll be more than
happy to answer it I am being naughty
tonight and I am drinking a soda just so
everybody knows I'm drinking a soda well
I stopped and got me one because that's
what I wanted so I went got me a soda
and I don't drink I'm very often but I
did get me one today
I haven't sippin on it all day but yeah
and with the calories I try to stay at
1600 I was really good about calculating
I'm really good about calculate him at
the beginning when I lost my first set
of my the 88 pounds that I pretty much
have gained back I was doing really good
about calculating and then once I kind
of stopped calculating I realized that I
was just kind of eating and thinking I
would keep calculations in my brain
which is absolutely can do that you just
can't and then I know this last week I
told Holly that I have been just kind of
struggling a little bit you know
emotionally there's been a lot going on
just in my own personal life that you
know I'm I'm really struggling with and
so and and it's emotional stuff and I
felt I've kind of felt myself doing a
little bit of binging this last week and
it has made me sad because I really have
thought that I've gotten over that hump
but I have allowed it to creep back in
and let that be my coping for this last
week of this emotional train that I've
been on but I did a lot of just crying
it out today and getting all of it you
know I have to let my fillings out and I
forget that sometimes and I forget to
lean on Ollie when I need him and I try
and take care of things myself so when
I'm carrying the burden a hundred
percent on myself then I tend to binge I
tend to do all of that and so in return
you know I did do a lot of binging this
last week and I'm not happy about it but
it is what it is I mean I can't beat
myself up for it now I just got to shake
it off and continue because I know it's
not the answer I know it's not so it's
been a little bit of a tough week how
are you feeling on metformin I couldn't
take it past a week my stomach exploded
what do you mean by your stomach
exploded my I've had a really good
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experience with it sorry I had a really
good experience with it so far I mean
it's pretty much cut out like all of the
yes yeah now see this is where it kind
of gets tricky because yes I did have
that that whole problem myself but also
my doctor put me on
I don't think I have it in here but it's
a pain med that he know I don't know
where it's at but it's a pain med that
he put me on metformin um for some of
the pain on my back and that one causes
you to be constipated so it kind of
evens itself out
I know TMI so I didn't have his prop
that problem so much but at the very
beginning I did but now it just
basically carbs my appetite so it's
really helped me a lot in the not being
so hungry stage so no disrespect but
should your child hear all this honestly
she is not paying attention and to
there's really nothing that I'm talking
about that's really private I mean I'm
not stating what emotionally I've been
going through I'm just saying that I had
an emotional week where's my oh there it
is
why is the spot oh there it is good I am
I have the Edit thing on um Salaam
alaikum Linda welcome welcome I am doing
pretty good
when I first started metformin I lost 20
pounds I had to change an
extended-release Mehta Foreman doesn't
bother my stomach as much uh yeah like
mine you know I don't know I'm not on a
very high dose I mean like when the--
when they told me that um that I was
like I tried external release also it I
took it for PCOS oh wow um so when they
told me that I had turned diabetic or
whatever my numbers were at the diabetic
level he said I was just over the hump
of it so I mean I was kind of in one of
those where it can Teeter I can go in
between pre-diabetic to diabetic because
I'm was so close within the the range so
he only put me on while I'm on one pill
well this says take one tablet by mouth
daily for one week then one tablet twice
daily for one week then one tablet three
times daily for one week then two
tablets twice daily at 500 milligrams so
now I'm on the two so I'm on a thousand
milligrams and I've been feeling pretty
good with it I mean I'm not like I said
I haven't really had any like bad stuff
that has happened with it other than the
first like I want to say the first week
and then after that I have it but I will
say I noticed if I eat anything that's
like like one night we had oh my god
what was it and Express I actually I had
told you guys about it and it made me so
sick OMG so sick and I told only I was
like I will never try that again because
that just made me so oh just the thought
of it makes me want
like yeah but no it's I think honestly
metformin has really been pretty calm
with me but I do know a lot of people do
have problems with it I take one
extended-release twice
day each of 700 Wow why do carbs have to
be so yummy I know I know I know
hi Nicole how are you I am doing pretty
good thank you how are you guys doing
this weekend I'm doing better I mean I'm
getting better you guys should have
moved here oli would be in seventh
heaven they opened Egyptian restaurant
and grocery store oh wow
yee-haa your vlogmas idea is genius oh
thank you thank you I love it I love it
I just you know I know some people
didn't understand it and they were like
it's vlogmas you're seeing it wrong and
I'm like no it's supposed to be vlog
mieze but you know I I do stupid crap
like that all the time where I'll pick
up something and change it to fit my own
budget you know my own agenda what is
the weather here today it's actually
been pretty cold
it was raining earlier and just Tim's
been cold I'm sitting here eating
Egyptian delights ooh yummy yummy but
wish I had some of that our closes
Egyptian stories about about 35 minutes
from here
we take a trip up there probably about
every other month you guys are making me
hungry now yeah as we usually go every
other month we'll go there tonight
we stopped out we were we went out for
dinner as a family tonight we haven't
eaten out know quite a while so all he
was like what do you want
go out to eat I was like well hey excuse
me I don't want to go to a restaurant
I'm just not in the mood for it I'm just
not there and is living here I don't
know I don't know um so we stopped
because everybody crazed over that
chicken sandwich from whatever it's
called Popeyes I didn't eat it but well
I had a taste of it cuz all he got it I
had a taste of that because I got
something totally different
doing different food from somewhere else
but he got it and yeah please smash that
thumb doesn't cost you anything
please it's free um no that chicken
sandwich is nasty as that's my opinion
on it I don't know what is so big about
it but let me tell you it was nasty
Thank You Nicole I didn't I don't know
what people like so much about it but it
just was like thick um I don't know huh
mm-hmm I don't know I didn't like it
though but he got some other stuff and
it tasted pretty good just took a nibble
of his stuff and it tasted really good I
have never had Popeyes besides one time
before and the time that I did have it
was probably about say about six years
ago and I had it but I thought it was
gonna be
KFC so when I got it and I was asking at
that time Popeyes did not do mashed
potatoes they did french fries which
they still do french fries but now they
offer mashed potatoes well when I was
there and I was ordering I said well I
want mashed potatoes and they're like we
don't have mashed potatoes I'm like what
and so I kind of was already thrown back
a little bit from it and then also it
had
really a strong Cajun flavor and I was
just not I wasn't filling it at all and
so that was my first experience with it
and I didn't really like it so this time
around I have to say the food didn't
seem bad I mean I like I said I only had
took a little nibble of everything but
um it didn't seem bad but that sandwich
was nasty um laughs a lot my husband is
mad because I did a grocery run
yesterday and we went to all the halal
stores and discovered the new stores I
was like yes oh no we don't have a
Popeyes here sure I am not missing
anything
Denise you're not missing anything I
haven't had it but it looks bad to me
I don't like Popeyes I never eat Popeyes
well Popeyes I don't I mean like I said
I don't think that Popeyes is bad but I
just didn't like the sandwich but again
I don't eat all that type of food
normally so like the popeyes chicken
that he had I just spilled the crispy
stuff off and I just ate a little piece
of the chicken the chicken tasted good I
had a bite like one spoon of the call
for cauliflower oh my god obviously you
know what I eat one spoonful of coleslaw
I think what it was I had one spoon of
that one spoon of their mashed potatoes
and I had one spoon of their rice that
was all that my extent of Popeyes win
and it all tastes fine I didn't well the
rice is a little weird but everything
else was fine just that chicken sound
Troy took the bite I did I was just like
yeah yeah I have diabetes I feel
physically ill if I really - which are
too sweet there are enemies in chicken
Chinese oh wow
that's awesome hello Cristina you have a
lot of sit-down videos can you do a day
in the life
welcome life with six kids I have not
had the puppies for a while but I
just stop eating the non halal food and
meats and nobody there can tell me meat
or not oh I'm sure it's probably not I'm
just saying I don't know but I am just
assuming it wouldn't be but I mean I
guess I shouldn't assume you have a lot
of sit-down videos can you do a day in a
life actually that is a really good good
good question and I would love to do
that and I want to do that as kind of
one of my things that I wanted to do
with the vlog mieze I really wanted to
do a little bit of that because I kind
of okay when I very first started
hold on I'm missing messages I don't
like Popeyes I'd rather have calves here
really Christina now see I actually for
the bytes that I got of KFC are KFC
Popeyes um sorry now see that's my
throat gets dry and then I'm like oh I
need a drink um for the flight the bites
that I had I haven't had KFC in probably
two years but the K the Popeyes that I
ate tonight the few bites that I did
honestly I like it better than the KFC
we have here but I mean it could be just
the way that it was prepared tonight I
don't know it was just but again it
could be tasting so good to me because
amy hasn't been eating that type of food
so it's been a long long time since I've
had any of that type of food I have
never had Popeyes this is only my second
time hey Amy welcome welcome welcome
Linda you can do it girlfriend
do it I am so excited and happy for you
all the clothes here not enough business
ohm he KFC mashed potatoes and nothing
oh yeah see now I am a potato person so
I could do it I hate Popeyes mashed
potatoes you know Christina the funny
thing about that is
when I took the bite amassed potatoes
tonight it was clumpy and that was the
only thing that kind of turned me awful
of as I like was are they chunks of the
potato is did it not mix good my child
is yelling and hold on just a minute
okay Omar is having a little meltdown
but it's okay he's fine now anyways um
the potato seemed really clumpy to me
that was the only thing I was just like
oh no not caring for it anyways back to
the vlog peas so when I very first
started youtube that was kind of my goal
was to do the daily vlogs cuz I took
about probably a good about three months
I'm gonna say watching you two because I
had never watched you two before I knew
it existed but I never had watched it so
I really didn't know even what it was
about and when I started kind of doing
like a little more research I started to
see what people did on daily vlog sound
you know sit-down videos and stuff and I
really wanted to do the daily vlog say
enjoy showing people my life what I'm
doing you know and things like that and
I started doing them but then I felt
like I was kind of getting taken back a
little bit because I started getting you
know criticized by you know vlogging
while I'm driving and you know I'm
vlogging and showing people and you know
when you're vlogging you're you're doing
it all you're showing everything you do
in a day and I'm not vlogging to
purposely like aim people out there I
just a vlogging and don't realize that
I'm putting people in my vlog which I
can now I figured it out actually a
couple days ago I can zoom them out or
like blur them out or whatever it's
called so I can do that but my goal is
is to honestly my goal in all of this is
to get back to doing my daily vlogs I
enjoy them and I really want to continue
to do those where everything I do I'm
vlogging it's not a hard thing to do
sometimes you might might get just set
up on my counter space and just see me
moving around in the daytime taking care
of the kids cleaning whatever it might
be I just go ahead and vlog it is that
kind of what you guys want me to start
doing
to me and tell me what is it that you
guys are looking for I want to do what
you guys want me to do if that is an
interest that you guys don't mind being
set up on my countertop and I just am
vlogging and doing my thing and you guys
are just watching whatever I'm doing I
can do that I don't have to have it a
structured video for every single thing
I'm doing if that's something you guys
want me to do I can do those tell me and
I'll do it I just want to do what's
gonna interest you guys
Linda you should not
oops you should not be drinking the diet
soda my sister loved a lot of men I love
you I said we'll stop your weight loss
and I will try your throw you should be
drinking water I know I know
oh you're so wonderfully as I miss in
your daily vlogs people I lost 10 pounds
when I had stopped oh I know I you ain't
telling me nothing I don't know I know
and the problem is is I know because the
last time I long I stopped drinking soda
for what wasn't you guys from July to
February I stopped cold turkey didn't
have no soda and I dropped I know a lot
of that was I dropped 80 pounds from a
lot of that soda good I need to switch
it off I really do I know I do and I
know oh that would be even harder if you
worked there hey Linda welcome welcome
welcome
that would be so hard I'd be like honey
bring me a soda does he get to bring
soda home for free from like working at
the company like if there's a dent in
the bottle or you know a little scuff
mark in the word I know somebody worked
at kettle foods and I'm not even joking
you they would bring heaping boxes home
of the kettle chips the kettle at the
time they did the oh my god what is it
called the
peanuts with the chocolate and all
peanut mix I don't know what it's called
check McNown on trick mix anyway as you
get the hint with the raisins and all
that good stuff in it he would get these
huge bags and I'm telling you like huge
bags and he'd get it for free because Oh
some of the payments were correct in it
trail mix yes trail mix it was the worst
thing ever
not in my book I enjoy whatever you do
Oh Cindy thank you I'm addicted to Dr
Pepper what is this one oh this is Pepsi
usually mine is dr. pepper - yes see I
told you yeah I mmm I'd be having a hard
time I love putting fresh fruit like
strawberries and kiwi in a bottle water
we have several bottles and keep them in
the fridge so I can that's a really good
idea and honestly I know I can do it
it's just a matter of Amy getting up and
doing it that's the problem but also I
like the carbonation so I like and
that's just it is I don't have an excuse
because they have flavored waters with a
carbonation it's just the whole factor
that I just think that it's the you know
I love kettle poker oh girl me too
I buy a soda machine SodaStream is great
thing we had one of those years ago hey
Jody welcome sweetie
um I had one of those like when it very
first when they came out in fact I still
think I have it sitting out there um I
didn't like it it's not the same it is
just not the same girlfriend it is not
the same so I can mm-hmm nope not gonna
happen but I like what are those called
was it the bubble ease that I tried with
you guys no wasn't bubblies was it
bubblies yes I think it was bubbly sour
bubble or something like that I really
like those but I don't know why I just
stopped buying them and then out of I
think out of just repeted like we do it
so often all they just bought a thing of
coke and brought it home and he was like
oh crap I didn't even think about it
and so what did I do well just drink
this and then when we're done while by
the bubbly stuff
so since I'm diabetic I drink diet soda
and now regular soda is not good
exactly Linda I cannot do regular soda I
mmm nope
nope oli will get it like a regular cuz
I don't but he does he can't stand diet
and I can't stand regular and I've tried
to drink it because I'm like so thirsty
and I just want to drink oh no not
anymore is it absolute it's too bitter
it's like - I don't know and he's like
yeah that's just too sweet
and I'm like yours is just too bitter so
there you go where's so opposite when it
comes to drinks um but yeah I I need to
get back into it
Diet Pepsi is my crack it is so hard to
give up it is Jody I know I know I know
it's really bad I did sit down though
you guys will be proud of me I did sit
down yesterday and I got on regular is
too much sir player maybe that's the
maybe that's my problem is it's just if
there's something different about it
that I just don't like it doesn't mix
with me um but I sat down last night and
I was trying to figure out okay because
my goal is at the beginning of this year
again well I'm already have been putting
in my efforts but I really want to
McDonald's Diet Coke is heaven yep yeah
you're not telling someone that doesn't
know that I know it's my problem
if anybody knows that's not me hey
Maggie welcome sweetie I am doing better
thank you for asking how are you feeling
I know you've been pretty sick yourself
um what was I saying oh I was sitting
down
so I sat down last tonight and I was
going with my notebook and I was trying
to figure out like I need structure if
I'm gonna stick to something and I know
that I cannot say okay I'm gonna do
something and just wing it because
otherwise I'm not gonna stick to it I
know I won't so what I did is I went on
Walmart Doc or Walmart grocery or
something just so I could get like the
idea of the different things with the
calorie counts okay I have Oh
Maggie I'm so sorry and give it up so I
mean giving up cigarettes has probably
got to be really hard I am so sorry to
hear that baby keep me updated on how
you're doing um so what I did was what
baby let me see
anyways I uh I love you too babe what I
did was i sat down and are you gonna
bring it to me we'll just bring it to me
really hold on you guys hold on just a
second
okay sorry trying to get them adjusted
anyways so what I did was I took my
paper and I wrote 1600 calories on the
top so that I knew exactly how many I
was working for and I figured out how
many calories I can have for breakfast
lunch dinner and then a nighttime
evening snack because I have to take my
meds and I need to eat something with my
med foreman so I figured out the things
that I like so for breakfast I figured
you know what I like my breakfast to be
kind of not food-related because I'm not
a breakfast eater but I know I need to
have something in my body to start my
morning so I figured if I do one half of
a bagel with like a teaspoon of half
cream cheese and my my coffee or my
teeth at all he makes with my breakfast
in the morning that will be right about
150 calories and then my lunch is I'm
either gonna do one Stephenville
vegetable whether it be the broccoli
mixed vegetable whatever all of those
are about a hundred calories per entire
bag so if I wanted to go and have the
whole bag I could but I'm also working
on portions as well so if I do that and
then also prepare ahead of time a couple
days in advance
some chicken breast and some tilapia
fish fillets then I can top it with one
or the other of those that would be for
breakfast and I'm talking like 330
calories for if I have the chicken and
vegetables and 228 calories if I have
the fish and vegetables and then for
dinner
kind of do roughly the same thing
whether it be I switch it off and do
either the chicken or the fish or
whatever and just keep it going that way
so I can just keep it on a track of
knowing and then because I I am a sweet
eater I mean it's just hands down I know
I'm a sweet eater and that's just never
gonna change
so I'm not gonna deprive myself
something and I know that I can do
things so much differently but at the
same time I know right now mentally what
is going to cause me to want to kind of
trick back a little bit so in return
what I did was I got myself one of those
$2.00 keychain things that I told you
guys about the Wendy's ones and I mean
it's a 16-ounce frosty so it's only this
big and literally it is 148 calories for
the junior frosty and if I want to have
a sweet I can count that into my
calories and still be totally under my
my calorie count but I would need to
make sure that I got to 1600 because I
don't want to stay under that because I
don't want my body to go into starvation
mode but I don't really want to go over
that because my body really doesn't need
more than that then 1,600 to sustain you
know and be still fine and then also
pump myself with my water so I sat and I
worked on that yesterday for about three
hours
and I made myself my list I made myself
my menu and once I go grocery shopping
which will be this week at some point
that's what I'm going to be doing for
myself now for the family of course it's
gonna be I'm going to go ahead and start
doing the kids with the same type of
they could have a half of a bagel with
some apple or banana
I got oranges today are tangerines or
whatever they're called cuties from
Costco because they love those so I
bought some of those hey Jordan welcome
me too I have to go and change it out in
my diet but I started water oh that's
good I can't do boot camp any more until
they find out what is going on with my
hem house or whatever's Wow
I love sweets but can't have it often
because of my diabetes but if I can't
shake it all you know Hershey kiss
that's actually a really good idea too
and I don't know if the junior is going
to be a good
chin for me um it's something I have to
bring up with my nutritionist as well
because that's one thing that they are
having me do is meet with a nutritionist
so I could bring all that up to her as
well as this menu I'm going to show her
and I'm pretty sure she'll be totally ok
with it because I really balanced it out
you know with the vegetable the protein
and I just need to find a little bit of
a car but I you know the carb some of it
could be right there with my bagel and
then you know maybe find a little
something else and that would be the
grams of carbs that I can have for the
day so it's just kind of playing with it
but I have to get back on track I had
there's just no getting by it and you
know I keep telling myself and that's
been something I think that I've been
emotionally going through a lot is I
keep I keep imagining myself at this
little or weight and I keep seeing
myself in a certain outfit that I have
that fits me but it would look so cute
if I had lost some weight and I keep
telling myself if I can lose weight and
really fit into that outfit how
comfortable I would be and I just can't
get that imagine that picture out of my
head of what I would be looking like
being thinner and I think that that is
what is really driving me right now is
that one I want to feel better I'm tired
of feeling the way I feel I'm tired of
feeling like I just can't go on why
didn't you ever get weight-loss surgery
good question Marie um there's multiple
reasons why one my doctor brought it up
to me and talked to me about it a long
time ago he's brought it up quite a few
times actually um but I'm because of
personal like personal things that I
know personally I have a cousin that
passed away after having the surgery and
that she possibly due to the surgery
I have a really close friend of mine
that passed away on the table while
getting the surgery and all of my family
has all had this
surgery a few of them have had wonderful
wonderful experiences and the outcomes
have been amazing and then I have a
couple of family members that haven't
had the best of luck and now they're in
and out of the hospital all the time and
it's all due to the surgery and I'm
deathly afraid that I will be one of
those that will have the the worst luck
you know what I'm saying and I just
don't have time to be sick for the rest
of my life because I made a choice to
get a surgery when I can lose the weight
I know I can lose the way I proved it
already once that I was on a roll I was
losing and the only thing that stopped
me was myself but if I would have kept
going I would have easily have been a
hundred pounds less by now totally would
have been a hundred pounds less if not
maybe even 150 pounds by now I know what
to do to lose weight it's just a matter
of me getting my brain into doing it and
that's just it is the surgery is not
going to do that for me and the surgery
is not gonna just remarkably let me lose
weight I mean I'm have ting to do that
no matter what mentally and emotionally
I'm gonna have to be ready to have a
surgery like that because it's not going
to change my mental state and mine my
food problem is my mental state that's
what my food problem is it's not because
of my stomach per se as it is just I
mean if I if I had the surgery I know I
would probably stretch my stomach back
out if I wanted to I'm saying if I
wanted to you know and I so obviously
that's not that's not the problem the
problem is is it's all up here and I
haven't 100% fixed up there but I am in
the process of doing it and I am at that
point now where again I'm just like I am
so tired of feeling so tired
thank you secret life
are you losing now I have not weighed
for a few weeks since I've started the
Med Foreman
I have not weighed there was one I did
weigh I think I told you guys I think I
told you guys the last time I weighed
I'm pretty sure I did um I don't
remember I don't remember exactly one
because I've been really trying not to
focus on that right now I'm just trying
to get my head back in the game and then
I can focus on numbers because I'm gonna
have to focus on him eventually but I
have not weighed lately because my scale
was not going down it was still showing
me going up and there was no way I could
been still going up my friend also
regrets like I said bypass surgery it's
given her health issues absolutely I
only ask because it seems it's a topic
tonight kidding no no no no don't feel
like that I totally ask ask away
I am so open I am so open when it comes
to that so don't ever feel like you
can't ask like please don't um food
addiction is just like any other
addiction absolutely do you know the
metformin is for people that are
diabetics yeah yeah I am diabetic I just
was diagnosed with it but I don't so
when I was pregnant with my son my
younger son he are I had diabetes with
insulin induce I was like out there
since then I've had really good a ones I
have been perfect but then lately
they've noticed I have been going up a
little bit so I'm right out that Teeter
where i tiptoeing into diabetic world
pre-diabetic world diabetic so they want
to go ahead and they want to treat me
now rather than wait and then we be
full-blown into diabetic and that way I
can start this and doing a diet so I can
start really working on and that's what
I've been doing is promoting myself to
get started but this last week like I
was saying earlier I've been really
going through a lot emotionally with
some stuff going on and I've been
binging and it's been bad so I had a big
cry out today with Ally
I just bawled I let it all out and
tomorrow's a new day
shake it off brush
knees off and say okay we got this and
plus with being sick it's not helping it
I lost a good amount of weight from just
cutting dairy out of my diet my fatty
liver is thinking me Oh Jordan Wow see
when they did my gallbladder surgery my
doctor the surgeon when he came in told
me he said you know I'm just gonna tell
you your liver is very very uh I don't
know what it's called like well I mean I
guess fatty but uh he used a different
term for it and basically said that you
know it could turn into cancerous if you
don't take care of it that's scare the
crap out of me enough that I started
losing weight that's when I started and
then just Amy got in the middle of it
and just stopped it no it is it actually
food addiction is unrecognized by the
diagnosis um I think all he needs
oh wow Linda so how I've been told is
what I've been told anyways through my
therapist and my dietician and my
therapist dietician cuz I've got three
on board basically with me um I've been
told that it is a disorder due to the
fact that I have a disorder binge eating
disorder and it's also with the the with
the addiction of food like food the the
stuff inside food is what we crave in a
day or an addicted if I can talk the
stuff that's in food is what we crave
which makes us be addicted to that just
like soda if you drink soda it diet soda
my therapist told me that drinking diet
soda actually
makes yes Jody yes as of November of the
year eating disorder hasn't been
recognized well and it might not be
officially recognized at night I mean I
I don't know why I I can't say if it is
or if it isn't I'm just saying like for
my own personal what I've talked to with
my therapist and my nutritionist and
stuff that there are things in food that
cause us to be addicted to it and that's
where it becomes addictive but I don't
know where it lines with being so yeah
I'm not sure I don't know how I don't
know where that runs but I do know that
my therapist said it was but yeah
absolutely Sunkiss I agree with that I
do I agree with that it mean it is in it
and see here's the thing I lack
motivation sometimes and I know that I
know that I lack that I think since Olly
has went back to work outside the home
it has left me to be responsible for
myself and my own actions and therefore
I kind of went crazy for a little bit
because he wasn't home
he wasn't preparing the mills I was
preparing them and amy was having fun
with what she was preparing really green
tea I'm allergic to band-aids and tape
anything that he said so oh wow kitty
that's a WoW yeah see if there's so many
of us out there there is so many of us
out there that struggle with this it's
not just one of us you know and if it
was easy we would all be skinny if we
were if it was easy we would all have
this completely down pat and we would
not have an issue but it's not easy it's
just
it's gonna be a struggle for the rest of
my life for the rest of my life I will
be an overeater for the rest of my life
I will have an eating disorder that is
never gonna go away but if I can control
it there's a difference and that's the
whole thing is that I want to learn to
be able to be in situations where I can
control it because obviously I know when
I'm eating and i'm benjy and I feel so
bad so bad I feel so guilty like I'll be
sitting there and I'll be eating I'll be
like I know what this hamburger is gonna
do to me tomorrow I know this is gonna
make me feel like crap tomorrow when I
stand up because of my knees I know that
I guess what I don't care I'm still
gonna do it I'm still gonna eat it
because why I don't care but I want to
get back to that point where I do care
because right now I just don't care I
don't I don't care I've been on a
weight-loss journey since the spring I
have lost thirty pounds and it's been so
hard I feel free
so oh my gosh Susan soup Susie I'm sorry
I was saying Susan I am so proud of you
thirty pounds is a lot of weight it may
seem like so little to some but 30
pounds is hard and I'm so proud of you
and congratulations keep it up because
it's stories and things like that that
make me want to continue because I know
that that's just what's out there food
addiction is isn't recognized eating
disorder it is
hold on foot addiction isn't recognized
eating disorder is recognized oh wow so
in case that's interesting that's good
to know
Oh kitty are you serious I tell you I
saw drinking in trucks with no problem
but this is my heart yep Linda I
guarantee you I can hear you yes can you
thank you for letting everybody know
because I would love to look for that I
don't have I don't think we have Oh a
meetings around here either
however I do have
it's not Oh a I don't know what it's
called to be honest with you I don't
know what exactly what it's called but
there is a thing with my therapist she
has a group of like a whole bunch of
people and they meet but I don't think
that's considered a know a meeting every
ten pounds I think of carrying a backup
potatoes around
it's Wow kitty yeah that's a good way to
think of it so Jody would that work the
same as Oh a I don't know I'm totally
confused on that I have an autoimmune
disease and I've gained 70 pounds on the
last year Wow
I am so sorry Cindy I am so sorry on
Facebook there's no way sorry oh Linda
Wow Wow Jordan oh really - Jody that's
good to know I didn't know that either
and that kind of leads me into this next
subject I know that we've talked well
that I have brought up at least one
other time hello McKenna welcome welcome
I hope you're having a wonderful evening
if you've come in and you haven't
smashed that like button can you please
do so
please I'm begging but also I wanted to
talk to you guys because I've had some
messages I think people misunderstood me
oh yes Christy and I have that to you I
have my pills in the living room I take
those every day - I and that's my goals
I want to get off all my meds that is my
ultimate goal I will be 39 this coming
year and I want to be off all my pills I
don't want to be 39 pop in 2 million
pills like I feel like I do every night
I mean legit I have a medicine bottle
that I fill each of my pills in and I'm
just like are you kidding me like I look
at and I just like take it like it's a
shot
I mean oh wow bless Wow I've heard of
that I'm I didn't know what it was about
until I heard someone speaking about it
on actually on YouTube Beauty and the
Beast ins Tiffany she has that and
that's why I first heard of it and I
looked it up anyways
I also wanted to bring up because I
think some people misunderstood or I
didn't explain it well enough I don't
know but I've had some messages okay
with the whole TLC show I hear yeah yeah
it's so like oops my batter is saying
it's going to Dollaway um my doctor has
told me that even if I do Oh Christina
oh Linda
why exactly McKenna I understand and I
agree with you too I do
I mean I'll take whatever I have to take
to keep my keep me going strong but I
would love to just be off half of these
meds that's Cindy that's what I take
that's what I take um for my thyroid
but anyways okay so the TLC show you
guys some of you I'm not the one that's
gonna be on the show as as the
contestant or whatever you want to call
them I I'll be on the show in one
episode one scene I'll be on the show
but I had some people messaging me oh
I'm gonna I'm gonna know what movie star
or a star so I'm like I know don't get
over yourself here no that's not what
I'm saying I will be on a scene but it
was funny when they're like I'm so
congratulations I'm so excited you got a
contract with TLC I'm like
no I did I yes I did sign a contract
it's in my it's in my stuff right over
here let me get my charger really quick
hold on my phone's gonna die hell no
sorry
ouch
hold on okay
Iraq anyways so yes I did have to sign a
contract that I was allowing them to
fill me and that I was aware I'd be on
the show and I also could not disclose
any of the information that I know do to
come from well not really
confidentiality so much as you just
can't talk about it so I'll be in only
one episode I can't really say much
about it but I can say it's me it's me
Skye's skyping talking that's all I
couldn't really say but I'm so honored
that Tammy had asked me when she did
like most people I mean a lot of people
don't know that me and Tammy talk on a
daily basis and we really do I become
very good friends with her
she's leaned on me a lot in the last
year and I you know my heart goes out to
Tammy you know and I love her so much
and it's so unfortunate that you know
unfortunately she has a really negative
view on face on YouTube do two things
that necessarily didn't personally have
to do with her and I just you know I
don't look into I don't look into I
don't look at Tammy as the past you know
I take Tammy
now as what I've met from her for the
last two years you know didn't mean
Tammy have a moment of scuffs of course
we did I think everybody on YouTube at
one given time we've all hit heads at
some given point that's part of being a
creator that you do that sometimes but
if you're willing to humble yourself and
accept your wrongs and push them aside
you can create a friendship that could
be life you know and with Tammy I think
that will be a relationship that we will
always have
I value Tammy very much so she's very
smart and she is very kind but you know
when you're in a lot of pain and you're
hurting and you lash out a lot of times
you don't mean that and I have to say
that I think some of it was a lot of
that and I think a lot had to do with
her living arrangements in the past you
know and I'm not going to talk about the
living arrangements in the past because
that was in the past and that's not my
place to talk about it but it doesn't
mean that I don't think that that had
some to do with what her problems were
you know and she's thriving you know and
she has a long road ahead of her you
know and did she meet all the goals this
year that she put before herself she
didn't but it didn't mean she didn't try
and it doesn't mean she's not going to
continue to work on these things
it's all things that she's put him
before herself so hold on just a second
um hold on sorry sorry sorry let me see
shoot where am I at there are three
youtubers going to be on TLC yes McKenna
January 1st McKenna sorry oh my god
correct it's okay do you watch yes I do
watch a 90 day fiancé how many episodes
will you be in Jordan I watched that
show and it made
mad last season I am so proud of Tammy
and Amy I talked to Tammy a lot too she
is the sweetest no T tells but when was
the show filmed Linda why did it make
you mad do you know Jeana MK she will be
yes I do
mm-hmm the mean comments that she gets
on her videos really hurt her eye
sweetie did you sign a nondisclosure
agreement I think using the word
contract was confusing people contract
means money is involved I am watching
CNN Heroes sorry you guys I'm trying to
catch up really quick I got far behind
Oh Jordan good night love thank you so
much for popping in I am so happy to see
you please take care and if I don't
leave now I won't get anything done here
yeah I know hey mom welcome I'm sorry I
didn't tell you I was going live earlier
all caught up so the film the the
filming started gonna see about eight
months ago maybe a little bit before
then I'm now I don't have my calendar in
front of me but I'll say about eight
months ago it started and it's it it's
still being filmed at this point you're
welcome but you guys won't see those
episodes until like further at the end
of this so it starts playing in January
and you guys won't see it for a couple
months but it will be already had been
filmed I am in one scene with them yes
with Tammy not Amy
amy was not there that day when I was
being filmed
but yeah so I just wanted to clarify
that I didn't want people to think that
I was the one that was like the show was
about me no wasn't about me I'm just
there as support for Tammy yes but we
couldn't say anything like I couldn't
tell you guys I mean this happened back
in s yeah mom oh wow Linda um
how many new friends will they have no
everyone knows and want to be on the
show not you I know I don't know I don't
know um my when I filmed it was back in
I want to say it was like August when I
filmed and I couldn't say anything I
wanted to say something then but I
couldn't so I could not say anything
neither could tell me or Amy say
anything until TLC was like here you
guys can you guys can say that you you
know that there's a show coming because
we've dropped it with people but we
still can't talk about what and I know
pretty much everything and that's
because Tammy can talk to me about it
but that's because I already know the
shows being filmed if that makes sense I
can't wait I am so excited to actually
ask Tammy awhile back if she was doing
the show cuz there was exactly and she
that was one thing she felt really bad
about because and that's what she was
really afraid of too was people were
gonna think that she was a liar but it's
because she's under contract she can't
she couldn't say she wasn't allowed to
so you guys would even notice that there
was a few times that amy amy was really
good about about it
posting videos and then she would take
him right back down because she would
post something and TLC would contact her
be like hey Mimi you can't pull set up
there because that would have been one
of the scenes
they were filming that day so they took
it off and she did that a few times but
technically yeah there and they were not
allowed to say like they can't they're
technically not supposed to say if they
had if they got the surgery if they
didn't get the surgery yeah see she felt
so bad and I told her I said don't don't
worry about it I think people are gonna
understand I mean there's nothing that
you could do I mean if she was to say
something she would have gotten sued you
know in everything that they owe Jodi no
worries thank you so much for popping in
I know I'm gonna get going here in a
minute thank you so much for popping on
I appreciate it I miss you so much I see
you in a lot of people's chats but I
just stay quiet I'm a lurker you guys
just so you know I I look around and all
the different channels and all their
lives but I half of them I don't talk
down the only ones I really talk on is
Rosie's but yeah it's it's exciting I'm
excited for them I think this is a great
great great opportunity for them and if
I can be a part of it to show support
I'm all-in
I'm usually a lurker to see and Suzanne
the thing is I watch a lot of him at
nighttime and so I'll just be sitting
there soin cuz amy said the other day
she's got 3,000 new friend requests Wow
Christina are you kidding me I see you
oh my gosh 3,000 it appears Tammy
doesn't comply with pre-op instructions
Salam alaikum welcome um Diana what are
you hi what do you want to new kitty
yeah it's
trying to think of a way that I can say
it are you talking about the scene where
the doctor is talking to them talking to
her I'm pretty sure it was three
thousand she said dang Christina I
really hope they are not portrayed in a
bad light Suzanne it's so hard there's
so much I want to say there's so much I
want to say and I can't yeah there's so
much I want to say that's insane but
totally unbelievable i am sure ya see
and that's what's sad is that they have
had some people that have liked some
youtubers that I know have talked crap
about them have now been like
approaching them to want them to do
lives with them and I'm I just sit back
I'm just like I don't want to get
involved in any of it but I think it's
kind of sad that people are trying to
ride on the coattails of them after
they've talked so much negativity but
Tami is just not into it she's like I I
just don't I just don't want to have
that like I want to be left kind of
alone um TLC is exploitive look what
they did with John and Kate Plus eight
absolutely I agree with you yes when
surgeon is talking to Tammy and how she
yells at Amy um yeah kitty that part
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um I mean yeah tell me was talked to I
mean I'm not gonna say Thursday she
wasn't talked to she was talk to you um
I think she's she's understanding the
the seriousness of it at this point now
I think she knows what she needs to do
to reach a lot of the requirements that
are you know before herself that she
needs to do I think that Tammy I think
that Tammy like Tammy said she feels
like she was kind of made to be the bad
sister if that makes sense and she feels
really bad that that that was kind of
the highlight but there's some
situations where they were told a
certain way to be that's the best I can
say they were told to do certain things
that that typically don't happen so I
mean when you're watching the show just
take it as a grain of salt take of her
face ball don't don't take it and read
it and think that that's who these
people are and now that I know so much
more of how this type of stuff works it
has opened my eyes so much to these type
of shows and it just makes me feel like
I still watch them but now I don't take
I take it at face value I just take it
as okay it's you know I'd love to see
them both healthy how cool would that be
absolutely kitty I mean if they haven't
been supportive all along the vation
pretend they are now exactly Cristina
exactly that I need a if you don't say
they exploit them to absolutely Linda
what does your husband say
what does my husband say about the show
I'm sure TLC told them to act a certain
way because it's all about drama
Christina ding-ding-ding-ding-ding it's
a show some of it is cardiograph kitty
ding-ding-ding-ding it's a reality show
meant for ratings everything is
storyboard ding-ding-ding-ding-ding if
you get all of my ding ding dings put
them all together and you guys will get
my top you'll get it all put together
without me saying that ok I didn't say
anything
you guys said it for yourself I can't
say much but I can I can agree with you
uh-huh oh my god that was great and my
husband was totally supportive of me
because he knows that meanie Tammy are
pretty close so it wasn't something out
of the ordinary that she would ask me
same time no one can say that Tammy
wasn't horrible in a lot of videos yeah
I mean I hands-down I'm not gonna I will
not today and she doesn't deny it she
knows that she has been ugly in some of
her streams she will admit that but
she's also in a lot of ways has grown
leaps and bounds since she's been on her
own she had like I said I'm not I am NOT
saying that she doesn't have a lot of
work still ahead of her she does
she does a lot but I don't think it's
scripted it's all edited and changing
the narrative
yes Sunkiss that's exactly that's that's
what it is
so what Sunkiss just said that's exactly
I told I told the producer I told him I
said well you best not make me look are
gonna be ouch
she laughs she's like don't worry I'm
like I'm worried
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I had actually applied for 600-pound
Maiko one time in fact
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want to be told to sit there in he an
entire people huh
exactly where did you Walmart Walmart
look I got tons of them um they're only
388 uh no exactly that's exactly
Christina exactly it uh I got tons of
these ones I got him a while back like I
got this one to match I just wanted to
drop by and tell you I love you I have
to get small okay mom um are you still
snapping because I have not gone to
sound from you and I need to really talk
to you um so I need to get a message out
at some point I did snap you earlier but
are I snapped you like couple days ago
but I haven't gotten a response anyways
yes these ones and look at how stretchy
they are and then I got how do you
remember where I got this one I don't
remember where I got this one but I got
that one too I have tons of them but
this child back here she takes them and
then I never confined him afterwards I
might get away from my stuff but yeah
Thank You Diana I appreciate it but yeah
anyways you guys I am gonna get going
I've been on here almost eighty minutes
and my voice is starting to feel like
it's getting a little crackly a little
crackle but I hope you guys have an
amazing rest of your evening I don't
know what time it is over there where
all of you guys are it is here here it
is seven ten so seven eight nine it's
prob about ten o'clock where most of you
guys all go I'm going to how to get over
okay mom but yes thank you guys for
stopping by and joining my vlog means a
day eight so today of course this was my
life for my vlog me but
you guys stay tuned and like I said if
you guys have any great ideas if you
guys want me to do my daily vlogs like
my set up vlogs let me know I will
totally do it I don't have a problem
g'night peachy good night Christina you
guys get some wonderful rest and I will
see you guys tomorrow bye